Reality

I still expect her to come in from our door. I still feel that person still lives with us when she's not.. I miss her voice even if sometimes it irritates me.. because now that I don't hear it.. I can feel the void.. I still wait for her to come and say that everyones made it safely home...

 I need to open my eyes and see the reality that everybody is moving forward... and I should too.. that I should look forward to that day..

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But I don't feel that way.. I'm scared, I don't wanna grow up.

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Why do I say these things when I profess myself as a Christian?.. because I'm just a human being.. Lord help me to get of this comfort zone.. give me that heart to grow up and take some more responsibilities.