19th Year

I can't pass March without talking about my birthday. I finally got my animal pajama that I always want to have :D see previous post. I have a copy of Kimi ni Todoke's volume 6! And I get to eat sashimi! And got three cakes too this year!And my brother fixed the sound in my laptop!!! (I can watch on my own laptop!) I think it all sound so self uplifting, sorry >.< . But I really have a lot to be thankful looking back from my 18th year and see how the Lord's hand upon my life even with the little things that I would think that He wouldn't bother to see... but everything about me He knows and everything really already is planned whether it's good or bad. As I start my 19th year I know that He will help me go through paths that will be hard *ehem*school*ehem*

I still don't know how to react when people tell me that I'm blessing to them. It's flattering but I also feel like that is not so me. But I think I should stop being negative. And maybe it's not me when they see that "blessing" it's Jesus who they see :D... because I know I am far from a "blessing" but through him I can accept that =D

Reality

I still expect her to come in from our door. I still feel that person still lives with us when she's not.. I miss her voice even if sometimes it irritates me.. because now that I don't hear it.. I can feel the void.. I still wait for her to come and say that everyones made it safely home...

 I need to open my eyes and see the reality that everybody is moving forward... and I should too.. that I should look forward to that day..

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But I don't feel that way.. I'm scared, I don't wanna grow up.

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Why do I say these things when I profess myself as a Christian?.. because I'm just a human being.. Lord help me to get of this comfort zone.. give me that heart to grow up and take some more responsibilities.

Sisterette

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We want to show off are cute toys. kekeke. Next week we will reveal you all of them when we finish fixing our room..so stand by!

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God's rebelutionaries

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Me and Alyssa Chua started a new here at multiply, we started to invite people to join last Wednesday [Yes Christmas day!] we were inspired by the group called The Rebelution which Alex and Brett Harris created, they encourage young people to stand up from what God's been wanting them to do and rebel against low expectations that the world has given us.. We believe that our generation has been given much talent for us to serve Him, but we tend to use it in our own ways cause noone even bothers,

Ecclesiastes 3:9-10, 12
Two are better than one, because they have a good return in work, if one falls down his friend can help him up.
Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves, A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."

It's a group that everyone can join, you could share your talent in making layouts, guitar tutorials even share the word that God showed you, anything that glorifies His name :D

You can't say you're having a bad day when the day haven't ended yet!

It's just so amazing how God will end my day, He wouldn't end it without showing His awsomeness! That's what He's been teaching me this couple of days, if my day seems to be bad on the very first minute i wake up, I should just give all the worries everything to Him, cause it's not me alone can solve everything, that I should keep on moving and wear my happy smile and be an encouragement to others, cause our moods affects every person that we past by everyday, and just trust Him on things that you're about to do everyday and He'll just give you the overflowing satisfaction. I couldn't just thank Him enough for His love and care that He let me see.

What the heck I'm talking about?.. well yesterday evening I planned everything for today, so I'll have enough time to sit and relax and have time for myself, but guess what, I never did any of it today, all was wrecked, And really.. it didn't start well, at all! It never started well whenever I don't start my day with Him, and getting busy with stuff around me.. This remind me the story of Mary and Martha, where Martha start preparing stuff for Jesus when He came to there house, but what Mary did when she saw Jesus, she sat on His feet and just listen to Him.

Now as they went on their way, he entered a certain village, where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. She had a sister named Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet and listened to what he was saying. But Martha was distracted by her many tasks; so she came to him and asked, "Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to do all the work by myself? Tell her then to help me." But the Lord answered her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and distracted by many things; there is need of only one thing. Mary has chosen the better part, which will not be taken away from her" (Luke 10:38-42)
- And that's just I great example, I'm talking bout Mary ha! before we start everything else, Let's start our day on thanking Him and listen to what He wanted us to hear.

And I just want to share my awesome day today, I don't know if its even related to everything, hahaha! so anyway, Me and My sister went to sunset to buy a guitar for moi! Long story short. I've been attending this guitar lesson for weeks, and I really wanted to have a nylon guitar but what I have is a steel string guitar, so this curious yssa put a nylon string on a steel string guitar, how did I manage to do that? well my dad actually made it happen, :)) it took us forever to change the strings :)).. and when I went to my class, my teacher just when balistic on what I did, but he got amazed on me too.. and after class he told me to check out guitar center they have the cheapest classical guitar that I could buy for 99 bucks.. So yea me and my sister went there, my plan was to go there alone, but my sister wanna come alone :) at first I got irritated cause she took hours on fixing herself, but seeing it now, I couldn't do it alone, and just thankful that she came alone with me =D.. and she didn't only bought me a new guitar but a new bag also =D.. Big thanks to that!.. the next problem I had was the bible study that I'm gonna attend by 6, and I'm still at sunset by 5 something, and the distance of that is like... so big! but I just let it go, and tell myself that I should bring along my guitar to church cause it'll take me an hour again if I go home, and guess what again, I came early at church! I even manage to help them prepare stuffs, the hard part of it was riding the line 10 bus, cause it's like rush hour when I took it, and bringing along my guitar seems to be the biggest mistake I did, but it's just amazing how God put everything together, after our bible study, it's greg and ilene's first time attending the midweek bible study cause they're away from home, and it's really our first time too to chat that long, and here greggy has been playing guitar for about a year, and we ended up planning on meeting up someday and just learn or "jam" as they call it. And I was like "wow Lord! I know it's you who did that, you're just superb!".. If you read my previous blog about me being sad for not having a friend here on L.A. with the same age range, and here how quickly God answered my prayer! it's just a wow wow wow experience!, And I pray that it'll continue on, that church we're in now is not as big as I used to attend to, and I'm just happy that He brought me along here, I know He got amazing plans for me, and all of it to know Him more and be with the people who needs the needs that I long for, that we could be an encouragement with each other,

There seems to be noone

I've been reading this book by Harris twins that really got into me on reading (if you've read my past blog you would know what i'm saying) And every time I read a new chapter..it just makes me smile, and inspire me so much to really go out there in when you're all hype or not. The topic I read awhile ago was a bout doing big hard things-and I'll keep saying this, it's been what God was telling me ever since but still here I am still planning.. or just thinking :(.

Talking with people on my same age or close was the biggest challenge I'm having now, physically, emotionally and spiritually.. I don't know where to begin, I always ended up crying on my quiet time with God, even now I get teary eyes just imagining how hard and hurtful it could be. Since I got a deeper relationship with the Lord I always wanted to know a lot more people and just share the same feeling I'm having with Him, but until now I haven't found any. I have talked to my friends in philippines, and I'm thankful that even if the difference of our time is impossible to think that you could able to talk to them still happened, These people are Mico, Ate Aleli and Ate Gela and Ate Andy.. Yea almost all of them are Ate's.. I mean they really are my ate's, I'm merely touched with God for letting me talk to them, cause I haven't really let my emotions out to anyone, well I did it before with Marcy our Pastor's wife, thinking about it now made me wanna shrink cause we ain't that close and I almost told her everything and letting her show my shtoopid tears. And lots more older people in our church, cause it seems like they're the only ones who could understand me.

It's just so amazing how God put everything in places in my life, I couldn't even take all the credit by myself, cause really it was Him who did everything. Longing for a true friend who I could really talk to, not with problems.. not even close to that, just being with the people who soulfully live their lives according to what God wants them to live. And just share His love to others who doesn't know Him or may know Him but haven't accepted His love, and just be an encouragement to this generation that expects to learn Him when they get old, just to feel the sinful things that our flesh desires, and be slaves to it.

* But how I could I do that in a place where I didn't grew up?
* In a new culture that I thought I knew before?
* In a place where I get so intimidated with everything?
* How could I start when there's no way to start?


I know this questions are so bogusly irritating to hear, complains that seems to be easy to know the answer, but I just got dumbfounded with the thoughts in my mind, I pray to God that I may see these not just for my own desires but to glorify His name. I am more than thankful with the people He let me meet to give me a boost when I'm about to fall and encouragement when I actually fall, and just wonderful enough to tell me to continue to know Him more cause truly God has a lot for me to see at to know and to learn, I just feel so blessed in this downfull situation that older people (talk about 30-50's) don't see me less the fact that I'm just sixteen and sixteen supposed to be bad on that age. But it just feels so empty not having a friend physically on same age range.