No good for anything

I'm really full of negative things in my chest right now. I know I'm not your all miss perfect and I always fail but do I really need to feel it to my bones? Do people need to shove it off my face as if I didn't know it myself. Why can't I get a comforting word from the closest person in my life? Why do they make me feel like I'm also wrong, I'm a clutz in such a very unloving way? T_T I wanna explode but I know it's not right... I really am.. I know I am... I am also slow... but I just don't feel good hearing it from others telling me. *sigh